The Blue Moth Story
July 2010, I lost my mother tragically. While trying to pick up the pieces and assemble myself into somewhat of what would resemble a functioning human, I realized I had more in common with her than I thought. My mother would spend days upon days crafting. Whether it be sequined adorned sweatshirts, wreaths, to home-made health concoctions. Around every corner in my house growing up there was a homemade remedy made by Wanda. She was magic. When we lost her, I can only speak for myself, but I wondered where her magic went. One day my sisters called and said we were going to do a fundraiser for suicide prevention, I thought how can I raise this money? How can I raise A LOT of money?! An idea popped in my head. CANDLES! I sought out materials and information on how I could make, sell, and raise money for our cause. I made over 50 candles by hand the year that we did our first walk. It was an amazing feeling. I had many great reviews about my candles, but it just wasn’t enough for me to push and pursue this hobby. I had my first child in 2010, my second in 2014, and my third (a rough one) in 2017..obviously putting myself last in terms of priority. Blue Jays came to me frequently. When I would sit in my daughter Stella’s room with her in my arms and my son AJ playing with toys on the floor, I would cry and look out the window, looking for a sign that my mother would be watching me and with loving approval standing around us. The Blue Jays would always be there, and I knew they were there to reassure me that I was on the right path. Although she left us unexpectedly, and never lived to see myself or any of my sisters get married, or got to meet any of her grandchildren, we are all connected.
Her persistent nature, her spirit, love, thought, heart, and creativity that she put into everything she did, motivates me to continue on my creative journey. And with that I will continue to pursue my dreams knowing that if my mother was here, she would be right beside me, creating.
The Luna moths symbolize change, transformation, the divine feminine, spiritual enlightenment, inner guidance, intuition, adaptability, or connection with nature. Seeing a Luna Moth can be a sign to embrace change and appreciate the natural world around you. It can also mean that good luck is headed your way.
Blue= Blue Jay
Moth=Luna Moth
The Blue Moth